Happy Thoughts

How I envy happy people.

Happy thoughts as they say...
Think,
happy thoughts

Think,
positive

How do these people do it;
Even in the darkest hour
Even in the toughest of time -
to stay positive and happy.

I was a long time sad a long time before.
My signs show the extremes...
Happy - very happy
Sad- very sad

Worst of all i can't hide how or what i felt.

I was a pessimist (and at times i still believe i am)
It is written in the stars -
not that i am a firm believer of them.

Worst of all i can't hide how or what i felt.

So i tried to make people happy instead.
Conceal my thoughts
Kept it all inside.

It felt good.
I worked fine
So i thought.
For awhile that is...

Beyond the laughs and smiles
All those times i made someone smile
I still felt- the anger,
the emptiness,
the sadness
all coming back.

Worse;
most times i felt sick but i don't know why.
Why!

All the times that I had made a difference in others,
All the times I was made others laugh and smile

All the times I smiled
All the times I laughed

I still felt sick.

The truth i was miserable,
Empty
Sad
Angry

Yet i don't know why
Yet I don't know what
I was miserable about.

I thought that if I had made others happy
Smile,
Laugh...

I'll make it all go away...
And i'll be happy.

But NO!

Times when I was alone
Times when I was tired and weary

All the
Emptiness
Sadness
Anger

comes creeping through my head.

I am a CLOwn.
I hated myself and became more miserable.

I told myself I should take care of myself
and
Feel that ounce of hapiness in myself, feel gd about myself
Then others will be too;
For then I will spread unpretentious joy around.

Moderation my friends.
Feel happy and good about yourself
And truly be happy
For your sake and others

In Loving Memory. [II]

Music,Melody & Lyrics by Mark Tremonti
Perfomed by Alterbridge
Album: One day Remains

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone and...
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly.

I never knew what it was to be alone...no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting
But now I come home and I miss your face so

Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free

I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of the one that was so true

You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was to be alone...no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same no

It feels empty and alone
I just can't believe you're gone

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free

I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad
We set you free from sorrowbut
I'll still love you more tomorrow
and you'll be here
with me still

All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will
And you always will

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free

I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

*This song is dedicated to those who've come and gone...

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